Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Yikes! It's been a while...

Yikes! It has been a while since I last posted.  I have a bunch of random journal entries from the past couple of months, perhaps I'll mash all of those together into one big "word vomit" post here to catch everybody up. 

I don't really have much to share at the moment, BUT I wanted to stop by real quick and share something.

I heard this song on the radio a couple of weeks ago and it blessed my socks off.  I have kind of been obsessed with it, and thought perhaps it might bless someone else out there in blogger land.  Soo, here you go

 Meredith Andrews - Not For A Moment
Verse 1
You were reaching through the storm
walking on the water
even when I could not see
in the middle of it all
when I thought You were a thousand miles away
not for a moment did You forsake me
not for a moment did You forsake me

after all You are constant
after all You are only good
after all You are sovereign
not for a moment will You forsake me
not for a moment will You forsake me
Verse 2

You were singing in the dark
whispering Your promise
even when I could not hear
I was held in Your arms
carried for a thousand miles to show
Not for a moment did You forsake me

and every step every breath you are there

every tear every cry every prayer
in my hurt at my worst
when my world falls down
not for a moment will You forsake me
even in the dark
even when it's hard
you will never leave me
after all

not for a moment will You forsake me

What a wonderful proclamation, right?  This is absolutely where I am right now.   I wouldn't consider losing a child "a storm" because you never, really stop grieving your child.  I do feel (at least for this week) my head is being lifted out of the fog and I realize that not for a moment has God left our side.  Not while we got the devastating news that our baby's life would not be what we dreamed of, not while we were in the hospital, or the wonderful week we were at home, or after our Heavenly Father took Thatcher home and we were left here to make sense of the pieces of our lives.  No, God has been by our side this whole time, holding, loving and tenderly guiding us along this journey!  'Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.'  Psalm 31:3  
Praise be to our Almighty God whose sovereignty and love is beyond our comprehension!!!

'You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right had are pleasures forevermore.'  Psalm 16:11 NKJV