The inevitable anniversary of my sweet baby boy, Thatcher Caleb’s
death is 6 days away.
Naturally, this impending date has driven me to the blog so I can reread our posts, close my
eyes and imagine what life would be like today if he were still around. While perusing the blog I realized I never
shared about our 8 days at home, or his birth story! I can’t stop replaying
these moments in my mind, and I want them written down so as time passes I can
recall the details that have become fuzzy in my memory. The problem is every time I sit down in front
of the computer screen my heart starts racing, my stomach begins to churn, and
my mind goes blank. You see, reliving
these moments is wonderful and agonizing at the same time. I get to dwell on thoughts of my sweet baby
boy, but satan very easily turns my thoughts into guilt, bitterness, and
depression. On top of that, I find
blogging to be VERY intimidating; I’m not a professional writer (quite obvious
by my misuse of syntax and grammar, but I do promise to NEVER misuse your vs
you’re, come on people!), nor I don’t understand HTML or any type of coding for
that matter so writing each entry and posting them takes A VERY LONG TIME!!
That being said, I absolutely regret not posting more this past year, so I am
back. Since I can’t bring myself to
post about our 8 days at home just yet, because I know what I will have to
write about at the end of that post, I have made myself a compromise.
I AM going to do a first post back, but it’ll
just be pictures of our 8 days at home (if I can remember how to post pictures on
blogspot) and one about essential oils.
That may seem like a random combination/compromise but for me essential
oils are connected to my Thatcher Caleb.
If it weren’t for Thatcher (his time in the hospital and his death), I
don’t think I would have been open to trying essential oils when God brought
them into my life (probably why I hadn’t heard about them earlier, lol). Sooo, now that I am posting an explanation of
my first post back, my first official “We’re still here” post will happen
right….
