I had a realization today, one that seems to me to be exceptionally important on our journey, and as we progress toward healing.
Psalm 29 speaks about simply the voice of the Lord, and how powerful his voice is. How majestic, and simply with his voice he can break cedars, can shake the wilderness, can strip forests bare. Everything in His temple says "Glory!", so we say Glory to God in the highest! We see again and again in scripture, Jesus healing by simply speaking a word.
Psalm 29:Ascribe to the Lord, O sons of the mighty,
Ascribe to the Lord glory and strength.
Ascribe to the Lord the glory to to His name;
Worship the Lord in holy array.
The voice of the Lord is upon the waters;
The God of glory thunders,
The Lord is over many waters.
The voice of the Lord is majestic.
The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars;
Yes, the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon.
He makes Lebanon skip like a calf,
And Sirion like a young wild ox.
The voice of the Lord hews out flames of fire.
The voice of the Lord shakes the wilderness;
The Lord shakes the wilderness of Kadesh.
The voice of the Lord makes the deer to calve
And strips the forests bare;
And in His temple everything says, "Glory!"
The Lord sat as King at the flood;
Yes, the Lord sits as King forever.
The Lord will give strength to His people;
The Lord will bless His people with peace.
Nahum 1:2-7 speaks about God and His power. The clouds are dust beneath His feet, He can dry up the seas, Mountains quake and hills dissolve. By his presence, the earth is upheaved. His wrath is poured out like fire. Surely God is a God to be feared, yet God is good. In His power and might, He knows those who take refuge in Him. We see Jesus calm the storms and the waves even as he walks on the water. This is the God who created all, and has dominion over all.
Nahum 1:2-7A jealous and avenging God is the Lord;
The Lord is avenging and wrathful.
The Lord takes vengeance on His adversaries,
And He reserves wrath for His enemies.
The Lord is slow to anger and great in power,
And the Lord will by no means leave the guilty unpunished.
In whirlwind and storm is His way,
And clouds are the dust beneath His feet.
He rebukes the sea and makes it dry;
He dries up all the rivers.
Bashan and Carmel wither;
The blossoms of Lebanon wither.
Mountains quake because of Him
And the hills dissolve;
Indeed the earth is upheaved by His presence,
The world and all the inhabitants in it.
Who can stand before His indignation?
Who can endure the burning of His anger?
His wrath is poured out like fire
And the rocks are broken up by Him.
The Lord is good,
A stronghold in the day of trouble,
And He knows those who take refuge in Him.
So if this is just a glimpse of the God we serve, (not to mention this is the God of creation), why then do I find myself asking, "What more do I need to do, God? Why are we still waiting for you to heal Thatcher? Do I need to somehow glorify you more? pray harder? longer? Praise you louder? Be more courageous?" I've come to realize that these questions are a trick, there is nothing I can do to earn your grace, or this miracle that I'm asking for, nothing I can do to earn your mercy. This is something I've known, and heard and been taught, but this principle has become very real, and I feel like God is screaming in my ear to listen. By their very definition and nature grace, miracles, mercy are in and of themselves unearned, and unable to be earned. If something were earned it becomes a reward or something like it, and then the focus becomes on me, and the glory and praise would be mine. I can do nothing to help Thatcher, my prayer has nothing to do with my abilities, therefore, God must be glorified. God must be praised. This is, to my knowledge, and in my understanding biblical, at this time all we can do is wait on God. Anything else takes away from God's glory. If we worry, we are proving our lack of trust in God's control, thus depriving the One who is worthy of glory from gaining exactly what He deserves. If we try to earn the miracle we are asking for, then we are simply shifting the focus to us, and therefore we are the ones who should be thanked and praised, because it would be because of us that the miracle occurred. Impossible, we can not earn a response, we can not earn God's grace. All we can do is rest in who the Lord is, rest in the power of his voice, in the very nature of who He is and wait patiently for Him. All we can do is be still, and know that He is God, and that He will be exalted throughout the earth, and correct me if I'm wrong, but the NICU is certainly still within the earth, God will be exalted even here. We can not fear, we can not worry, and we must stand firm on who God is, and take refuge in Him.
Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him
- Psalm 37:7
Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
- Psalm 46:10
Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today...The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.
- Exodus 14:13-14
I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for Me?
- Jeremiah 32:27
Plain and simple. Our trust is in the Lord, it must be. We will proclaim the power of the Lord, and glorify Him. We will seek the Lord. Thank you, God, for who you are.